You choose

I’ve been mentioning going back to eating some of the foods I gave up last year following intolerance testing (and after a four-month plus period of trialing life without them, without marked difference to my health). This may sound foolhardy and yet there’s something I’ve come to understand about making such choices versus religiously following the outcome of tests or theories (especially if they fail to produce either results or joy).

When you come to the point of choosing something that you really want to include in your life (perhaps especially after having broken the habit of them, which makes that decision so-much more conscious) you take the reins of your body back and, as it were, press the over-ride button. Choice is such a pivotal aspect of sovereignty and when the body is dictating to us, more so than the other way around, it can be so difficult to reach a place from which you feel capable of orchestrating your own recovery or, indeed, anything that you really want from life. It is therefore essential to call back to yourself this right of “choice” and to exercise it from a perspective of higher-understanding (not blatant ignorance of the truth) about what that food – or whatever it is – offers to your overall life experience.

Obviously, we’re not talking about something outright destructive for the body, such as taking up drinking again if you are an alcoholic with a damaged liver. But if you have truly reached the point that your body seems to be signalling that it is missing that thing and you have felt into that to find that to follow through would bring joy or even excitement back (yes, food has a great deal to do with generating excitement in the body) then it may be time to listen.

Three of my things were cheese, marmite (yeast extract spread) and eggs. Without them, life seemed lacking as a vegetarian, especially living as I do around people who still eat them as part of a regular diet. When I cautiously reintroduced some sheep cheese (the lowest reactor in my tests) the delirious excitement  around those meals felt like a health benefit unto itself. It took me much longer to reintroduce the other two ( I was a bag of nerves eating that first egg…like it was a granade that might go off!) but they both brought about the same delirium and refound joy. Why wouldn’t they exite me? I got to experience favourite flavours that had been absent from my meals for a very long time (in marmite’s case, almost two years) and which, during that time, I had honesty entertained doing without for the rest of my life. There have been other things I have quietly slipped back in to the diet over Christmas. For instance, I was told to give up all raw food, crunchy coleslaw, spinach, coriander (cilantro)…so how come I crave them like my life depends on it right now? How do I say to myself “I trust my gut instincts like never before” except in this? Rather, I believe I have a higher relationship with these foods now than I ever had…perhaps helped by the short pause so I could renegotiate terms!

So why do certain foods present a risk at all if we can over-ride them like this out of choice. I suspect there is a “danger zone” when we come to doubt these foods due to too-much information about them (and scientifically speaking, this information may well be correct), which takes us past a point of no return…or at least until we are conscious and confident enough to step to a higher ground where we can both know “the risks” yet balance them with our own personal spin on those pitfalls (as no two people react the same to any circumstantial trigger and one person’s poison can truly be another’s life tonic from that conscious place). There’s got to be a reason why some people seem to eat their way through a shed-load of terrible food for the whole of their lives, or even smoke two or more packets a day with, apparently, no significant detriment to their health or longevity. I suspect it’s because ignorance is bliss and if you truly never question what you are putting yourself through, it has far less effect than if you know all about the inherent risks and continue anyway (cue the warnings on cigarette packets as, possibly, the biggest health risk associated with smoking so far).

So, for more and more people now, there comes the point when you start to wake-up and learn more and more about the health story behind certain foods and behaviours, wanting to learn how to achieve a better and healthier life for you and your family. If you take the deep dive, it can start to feel as though your tolerance of everyday things starts to wane as fast as you gather new information…because there is no such thing as “half-knowing” the facts. Once you start to doubt what you eat, the rot sets in as the imagination takes over and the sides of “normal eating” start to unravel. People give this up and that up until there is next to nothing left; and yes, at one level, they are right to do so because while there is fear or negative emotion of any kind (which is the likely trigger of any health issues that have arisen) associated with something that you eat, I really wouldn’t recommend  consuming it. This is why intolerance testing is both useful and yet can mark the point of no return for some people as, once that fear is set in motion, it is terribly hard or even risky to over-ride the results that you get back on that piece of paper. Unless you do so with a very high degree of consciousness and sense of sovereignty as you make, and follow though with, any choices to override the data…but only after doing the work to break the chain of emotion or whatever it is that instigated the allergy in the first place.

When you reach such a conscious point in your relationship with your body that you are able to do that work to release negative associations or any emotional energy around certain foods and just meet them where they are, you can assess the vibration of that food and tune into whether it is a good match for what you are craving. While this sounds complicated, it becomes so instinctual that you can make these choices pretty instantaneously with a high degree of insight and, thus, success (in terms of chosing what is appropriate for your body at that time). I’m not saying that emotions or whatever don’t sometimes sweep in to confound you and, suddenly, you’re eating that cake or whatever called to you from its plate and which you bitterly regret as the stomach ache starts to set in. However, again, from this conscious place, the recovery time from such slips becomes pretty darn quick once your reactions aren’t all tangled up with fear, remorse and self-beratement. You clock it up to experience and you move on to the next food-choice, where you listen to instinct again…and take it from there. This is eating with presence; moment to moment, with no strings or attachments. I am of the opinion that the human body is evolving faster then ever, in alignment with our true potential opening up like never before in the history of our evolution.  Our reactions are becoming more energetic and instantaneous; thus less ingrained or habitual as we become lighter and more evolved. It has to be expected, surely, that what might once have felt like hard and fast limitations serve more as wayposts and temporary obstacles waiting for us to practice our higher consciousness on them, all the better to speed our own evolution.

So the conclusion of this whimsical and probably not very politically correct post (at least, not in “health through elimination” circles) is that I identify in myself how I have reached a new place where there are no hard and fast rules regarding food (or indeed anything else). While its early days and, you could say, I am still trialling this, professing to have no expertise or long-term evidence of success, this feels so much more expansive than living in self-denial and constant fear around something that should bring injoy – ment, as well as nutrition, to my human experience. As I said, the essential ingredient that is joy comes with its own set of health benefits, which I am testament to as I newly rejoin the communal and spontaneous act of eating, with some degree of normalcy and fun, and start to look forward to preparing, sharing and savouring my meals once more.




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