Its easy loving self when life is going smoothly; what about when its not, when the body (for instance) throws you a curve ball at the most inconvenient moment. I realised that this thing I thought I had, long-ago, achieved like I was the grand master of this very thing - a state of total SELF-LOVE and ACCEPTANCE - was a smokescreen for a more pervasive layer of self-judgement that was still lurking in there. I thought I had this thing off to a fine art yet I could now see how I was still holding it in; within the very depths of my being like the Loch Ness Monster beneath the pristine waterline. One rocky day in my "boat" and it was still waiting there to gobble me up....