Yoga-ish

That thing that I do most(!) mornings on my yoga mat probably doesn't bear scrutiny from anyone who attends a yoga class or really knows their stuff...its not "proper", its not pretty, its not lengthy, its just what I do (a mixture of what I've learned, what feels good, movements I've half invented); but the key is in the words "I do it". I know of plenty of yoga aficionados who still only do yoga when they go to a class. Sometimes I roll movements together so much I feel like I'm a butterfly about to take off then, at other times, I use long pauses and gravity to do the work with me, holding positions until my body tells me to stop, a method that can deliver exquisite release to some of the deepest entanglements. The sense of fine tuning what my body is most asking for, to my own rhythm, has been palpable and the real gift of home practice; being unique to me and that most-intimate inner dialogue (the one that starts with the invitation "show me what you want and I will do that" without uttering a word) and not something that could follow the rhythm of a teacher or class. A conversation such as this, based utterly upon trust, is one that never (ever) stops again but, rather, carries on spreading its magic across all aspects of your daily life. Approaching yoga in this ad-hoc way, the mat remains somewhere that I'm accomplished, doing something that its impossible for me to do wrong or badly (which is a good starting point to get to know this truth about all of life). In listening to my body, what it wants, what it calls out for (today...which may not be the same as yesterday), I do something that is a central tenet of what yoga is all about and that takes me into that same hallowed space where the alchemy of yoga really happens. Like a meditation or a pause for breath, a moment of grace in a life that can be physically challenging, a demonstration of pure self-love and of listening to what my body is telling me, I get there...all on my own.

Don’t be SAD…

If you are a 'sufferer' from SAD (seasonal affective disorder) this is your loud and clear invitation to consider ways (and here's a whole treasure-trove of them, gathered through my own personal experience) that you get to create a very different experience; consciously, through choice. Suddenly, a seemingly endless procession of gloomy days doesn't seem all that gloomy anymore but, rather, has become the very playground of creating your own best experience - and not just in this rather trivial-seeming way but in all things, putting you back in the driving seat as the creator of your own best possible life.

Its not your fault, you aren’t doing anything wrong…

Lets get this straight - when you have fibromyalgia or any other chronic issue going on, you are no more broken, missing the point, off-track, lost, wrong, misguided, less-than, flawed or misaligned than the next person. It was nothing that you did or didn't do that "caused" this and, no, expressing (truly) how you feel about it is not halting your progress on some imagined journey to wholeness on which you feel you've got to pretend its all "great" along the way. Imagine if you are already there - fully aligned with your highest purpose, exactly where you are meant to be - and are allowed to feel all that stuff, to say it like it is - warts and all - and to give voice to everything that is going on for you, without apology or fear of consequences - how self-loving is that? From that place (where you already are), you can dump all the self-blame, the finger-pointing and, yes, the inner chastisement that stops you from feeling, allowing and EXPRESSING it all, including all the frustration, the disappointment, the unspeakable pain that halts you in your tracks when you want to be dancing. Maybe, just maybe, that's where the biggest gift of them all is awaiting you - as you unleash the voice that wants to say it exactly like it is in this perfectly imperfect moment of now!

The difference that is yoga

Yesterday I woke in pain so intense I was completely locked-up all through the trapezius muscle and my limbs hurt all over. This was a fibromyalgia flare-up of old; I recognised all the signs of the pain that gets into everything. Yet by mid afternoon I was bobbing around the house on a mission to … Continue reading The difference that is yoga

The universe in a foot

One of the most effective techniques I have adopted lately is the practice of self-massage and especially of the feet, although the hands are also extremely effective. The art of reflexology knows all about this, of course, and there are many useful books and technique guides out there (below is one that I found helpful). … Continue reading The universe in a foot

Living the animated life

Movement is so key to good health and I'm sharing some that have really benefitted me on the recovery path from chronic pain. If there’s a thread running through all these activities, its the importance of hooking onto the ones that you really want to do, grabbing onto the coat-tails of enthusiasm (even if laced with fear and self-doubt), not forcing yourself against the grain to follow 'recommended' programs. The more movement becomes an integrated part of life, the less pain remains part of the fabric of life - it just gets shimmied out!

Breathe. Be in this moment.

Birthdays can be such profound time of year for grasping some some of the broader truths of this existence. On mine, the other day, I was at once receiving well-wishing messages as I was receiving updates on a Facebook thread I had commented on that morning, posted by a friend whose elderly father was slipping … Continue reading Breathe. Be in this moment.