Moving more, not less

My physical foibles (labelled such things as EDS and chronic pain) don't render me unentitled to a gloriously reimagined health future but even more prone to be open minded and eager enough to embark on the journey because there are no rules where I dwell, it is all a giant leap in the dark so why not make it a leap towards what I prefer to envision and thus create. The first step is to make friends with movement...

Creating new body memories

As an adjunct to clearing the body of old emotional memories in order to heal, it's important to start a blank canvas of creating positive NEW body memories that invite the body to take part in choosing what makes it feel good. Here's how I'm using that understanding to move into the later stages of recovery from chronic illness, shifting me into a new place when it comes to how resilient and good my body feels (yes, we all still have our off days)...

Standing up, being seen

To an extent, those of us who have been on these long-lonely self-healing journeys are always destined to be misunderstood. Our very journey has awoken us to such a different paradigm of reality that we are hardly on the same book cover (probably not even in the same book shop...) as anyone else, let alone the same page. People who haven’t been through what we have are simply incapable of understanding the depth of the inner journey as we self-explored our own existential crisis, inch by inch, day by day, nor the altered trajectory of the journey since that all began for us...but many more people are starting out on those journeys now and we can be of assistance to those who start to seek us out because we shine a light on somewhere they have found themselves; yes, we can do that, if they meet us here...

Four-legged walking and defaulting to a new “centre”

I am picking up on ways that spectrum types seem to connected to an earlier permeation of human being that lived much more closely amongst animals and in Nature, and even with animal themselves (since those early people did not feel the same disconnect with other species that modern humans do) rather than to the currently dominant neurotypical strain of human that has largely disconnected from Nature. In our extrasensory abilities, as in an ability to sense many things that we can’t "just" pick up with our conventional five senses (to the exactingly detailed standards we prefer...), our ability to preview how something will feel in advance by tuning into the experiences of others, plus our trends of mixing up and crossing over those senses, as in the way of synesthesia, and of using visual images as memory and information rather than “ideas”, I sense this link. In the way our bodies seem to connect with and respond to circadian and other natural cycles more than most people, I sense that link. In my case, the way I work, quite compulsively and intuitively, with symbology and complex metaphor feels as though it harks back to an earlier format of human that lived deeply immersed in Nature and took all sources of data, logical or otherwise, as clues leading towards a fuller sense of meaning. In our joined-up way of processing, and our deep frustration with systems built to serve social ideas of human behaviour, prescribed largely to serve ideas of lack, profit and control (but which make no sense in the broadest sense or supporting life for all and which fail to take care of the “bigger picture”of our world) I feel like some sort of honorary member of the animal kingdom shaking their head in dismay at the way the world has been turned over for personal gain. Yet, to seem more neuroptypical, in order to blend in and survive, as we saw it, we may have traded off our profound connection with the body and its senses to focus on our heads...

Impressionable: a breakthrough in working with super-sensitivity

At the risk of this sounding like an over generalisation, it seems to me that neurotypical people mostly take in their impressions of the world through their heads and their fingertips whereas, as someone with Asperger’s (and I have read about this trait a lot in Aspie accounts), I seem to take in my impressions … Continue reading Impressionable: a breakthrough in working with super-sensitivity

Skimming the top off female Aspie emotions

The common assumption goes that people with Asperger’s lack emotion, are cold and logical, even disengaged but,in the case of women, I suspect this is a textbook misnomer and very far from the truth; though perhaps we feel too weary at the prospect of having to contradict it, as I know I do, since our emotions are not so easily explained by neurotypical criteria. Rather, my exprience and research suggests we have too many emotions; great seething storms of them rolling in; but there's something different going on, to do with how we experience and then decide what to do with them...

Ehlers-Danlos, POTS and Asperger’s…many lightbulbs go on at once

It can feel like a very long walk down a dimly lit corridor when you are trying to fathom your way out of a long running health condition such as fibromyalgia, as I expect others on the journey could probably relate to. From time to time, if you’re fortunate and diligent enough in pursuit of … Continue reading Ehlers-Danlos, POTS and Asperger’s…many lightbulbs go on at once

More reasons for bra-burning

From the International Bra Free Study: “Bras Can be a Pain. Literally. In fact, research shows tight bras can cause breast pain, cysts, and even cancer. The tighter and longer the bra is worn, the higher the risks. While the bra-cancer link is still being resisted by affected industries, the fact is that bra-free women have the healthiest breasts. The Bra-Free Study will prove that and show that this group of women will have lower breast cancer rates compared to women who wear bras.”

From another planet

How long have you felt like an alien landed on the wrong planet? Its something that needs be felt into if you are an Aspie, in order to fully respect yourself for just how long you have had to swim upstream against the flow; so you can appreciate the sheer tenacity and determination with which you try…and keep on trying….to fit in, speaking and receiving words and behaviours that don't compute and yet always having to step forwards to meet others far more readily than they ever come to meet you. It's a thankless task and now it's time to thank yourself. Bringing your Asperger's into the equation can even help you cope with some of your most triggering circumstances because now you have logic on your side (and you know how much we love logic). Here's my example...