Living autism

When the time comes to finally live the autistic life, it can feel both daunting yet potentially liberating but how to go about it. We are forced to question which reality is the real one, the one where we normalise successfully and do all the stuff that looks like having a relatable life (through the eyes of other people) but with terrible outcomes for health, or the one where we are fully cognisant of our autistic traits, meaning that we accommodate them so much better but also meaning that our life inevitably looks much more withdrawn, carefully curated and (yes) autistic by default? In this post I explore questions such as whether and why to seek a formal diagnosis and how to reset social expectations and other boundary issues as I venture boldly into the territory.

The fact I “seem” to be coping with the big event doesn’t mean that I really am!

My hypermobile neurodivergent way of getting through an event might not be typical and will generally involve a lot of extra strategy and accommodations but it is just as valid as the next person's and, the more I own this, the less disappointed I am with myself or my circumstances. The world does not, in any large way, accommodate people with neurodivergent sensory responses to the environment or their not insubstantial neurological or physical differences, especially if hypermobile, therefore big events are seldom pitched to accommodate us, as a minority factor in the room. The very best I can do is have my own list of helpful methods and tools at hand to get me through these big events my way whenever they happen, with a view to minimising the worst kinds of after effects sufficiently enough for me to be able to hold on to the happy highlights instead of all the low points. Here are a few of my tips to myself in case they are of use to anyone else.